Friday, September 24, 2010 I come!

I know, I know...all the bloggers that are not going to be in Chicago this weekend are getting so sick of hearing "BOOBs" and "Chicago" but i have to talk about it just for a moent so hang in there.

I would like to share that THIS is totally out of my comfort zone. I am or was a self-proclaimed hermit. Yes ma'am......this awesome chick is a hermit....well....was! Since losing 42 lbs and no longer weighing in the 3's, I feel so much better about myself. I was ahermit bc I hated the way I looked. I felt that everyone saw the fat...not the person. Now I know I am still quite overwieght but my confidence is so much better. Prior to the band and losing 43lbs, there would have been no way in hell I would have gone to Chicago. I never did anything. I was uncomfortable in public and in my own skin so I went to work and home. I avoided social situationsto the best of my ability. Occasionally my hubby would drag me to social events and I was miserable....but not anymore. I still have some insecurities but each day and each lb lost boosts that confidence. Being able to go into Lane Bryant and buy smaller jeans and cute tops and sexy bras....that isan amazing feeling. For years I bout all my shirts online bc that is the only place I could find a large enough size. It sucked. So, for all of you not going to Chicago...I want you to know that this is exciting to me because I have hidden for so long and finally feel comfortable getting out and being myself. Thanks for everyone's support.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

BOOBS Questionaire

1) You’re trapped on a desert island and you can bring only 3 of your favourite foods along. What do you bring?

Pre-band: Ice cream, Ice cream and more Ice Cream
Post-band: Egg Whites, Smoked Salmon, Fage Yogurt

2) If you could meet any 3 people, living or dead, who would they be and why?

President Obama - bc I would love to meet a president

Tom Hanks - bc he is one of my most favorite actors

Amy W - bc she is a SUPERSTAR

3) What is your stripper name? (take the name of your first pet and the name of the street you grew up on)

Kable Kramer

4) How old were you when you lost your virginity? Alternative question if you don’t want to answer this: What is your LEAST favourite part of your bod since losing weight? Your MOST favourite since losing weight?

Hate my fat apron...yuck!
I "love" that my fingers are shrinking and my rings are getting very loose.

5) Do you believe in ghosts or evil spirits? Would you be willing to spend a night alone in a house that is supposedly haunted?

Yes and HELL NO! I would probably pee myself, several times!

6) What is your natural hair colour? If you dye it something completely different from what your momma gave ya, how come?

Brown, all natural here!!!

7) Boxers or briefs? Alternatively…bikinis or granny panties?

Boxers ..... Thong, tha, thong, thong, thong!

8) If you could only watch one movie for the rest of your life, what would it be and why? (Trilogies do not count as one movie, cheaterpantses!)

Forrest Gump or me some Tom Hanks

9) What is your guilty pleasure (feel free to go straight to the gutter with this one if the spirit moves you!)

Ice Cream...that's why I am fat!

10) How many pounds gone forever are you celebrating?

68-since highest in 2006
42-since surgery

Monday, September 20, 2010

BOOBS Outfit

I need to know what I can wear on Friday night. I know Saturday is a bit more "fancy" but Friday night, can I wear nice dark jeans, heels and a nice shirt? Will all you hot mama's be wearing cocktail dresses on Friday night as well? I am most comfy in my pj's and fairly comfy in jeans...other than that, I feel WEIRD! Almost Alien! Anyway, let me know what you think!!!

By the way, we are having a foursome in our room!!! YAY!!! PILLOW FIGHT!!!!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Okay, Okay!!!

Let me start by saying that I LOVE this picture! Macy learned to do "So Big". She turned 9 months old on Friday and she weighed in at 20.12 lbs. Do you realize that I have lost 2 Macy's in fat!?! When I put it that way...that is pretty cool! I hate the scale and just wanna beat the crap out of it. I know that I am losing weight because clothes that I wore are too big and new clothes in smaller sizes now fit but the refuses to budge! I hate it! (for now) BOOBS!

I talked to my hubby one more time and I decided to go to BOOBS (again)! No I am not bipolar, crazy or have split personalities! Well, I am a little crazy! I HATE spending money on myself. I don't know why. I should rephrase that....I have a hard time spending money on myself. I am so used to buying everything for everyone else so the idea of spending money on a hotel room, new clothes, food, shopping and fun stuff...scares the crap out of me. Michael needs new shoes, Matthew needs new jeans, Macy needs more fall/winter clothes. There is ALWAYS a kid that has a need for my money. My hubby hates the idea of me staying a couple nights away from him and my 8 year old...HATES it too. He keeps saying that he understands why I need to go but doesn't want me to go because he will miss me. Ugh! But, like I said, I talked it over with my husband again and have decided to just go. I mean for goodness sakes, if it is terrible, I can just drive home. I probably won't be doing the boat tour since it is a bit pricey. I have this Debbie Downer inside of me that tells me I am too fat to do this. That even though I have lost 40lbs, that is still not good enough for all you ladies! Debbie makes me doubt myself, feel uncomfortable in my skin and holds me back from enjoying life. I hate her. I hope she dies when this weight eventually comes off!

Sorry for being a bit CrAzY! Try living with me! Teeheehee!

See you lovely ladys in a few short days!!!


I bought new jeans, bra, and t-shirt yesterday and I feel good. I feel thinner even though the scale isn't moving. Here is what makes me sad. My husband won't compliment me. He wont tell me I look thinner. He wont tell me I look beautiful. I get nothing from him. It hurts. I am working really hard and he says NOTHING. I guess this may be another reason why there is a higher incidence of divorce after WLS. Whatever.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Love Letter to My Scale

Dear Scale,

I hate you!

I wish you a slow, painful death.


Monday, September 13, 2010

Picture Time!!!

As you all know, I LOVE me some pictures! So....I am gonna share some pictures with you all. Random pics from the last month or so. Hope you enjoy!!! If you are my friend on  FB then you know I love pictures because I have a million albums. Here we go and enjoy!!!

Miss Blue Eyes in the bath!
Me and the Hubby in Galena!

Macy loves the water.

Matt waiting for the parade

Matt taking the kittens for a walk at the farm

Btw, I do have 3 kids but my oldest, Michael, is 14 and he doesn't do a whole lot with the family anymore since he is a teenager! Just in case you were wondering! Take care!!!!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Bye 42 and Bye 300

Yep, you have read that right....42 freaking lbs gone!!!

I have been MIA for awhile and I am sorry for that! August sucked some serious balls! I didn't lose a freaking pound and I felt like a failure! I figured that once again, I was going to fail at this "diet" too. That I was destined to be fat forever! That I was destined to be buried in the extra large coffin. It sucked. I told myself I was not gonna go to BOOBS because I didn't want to be the fattest person there. I did not want to meet everyone at 300+ lbs. I know, it is irrational thinking but they are my crazy ass thoughts! Sorry! So, last week I weighed myself and it said that I was under 300, WTF?!? That can't be right. I had been eating like crazy. So, I stepped off and stepped back on the scale and sure as shit....299. Let me share a tidbit of history. I have not weighed less than 300 since the day of my wedding nearly 4 years ago. At that time I lost 62lbs with WW. I was so excited to say that I did not weigh 300 when I walked down the aisle but soon after the wedding, I slowly started regaining. It happens. We all know that. This morning the scale fairy blessed me with 295 which brings me to a loss of 42lbs since 5/10/10. Not too shabby considering the stupid scale didn't move at all in August and I have not been working out.

Speaking of working out....! Friday I am starting with a personal trainer and am soooo excited! I need a serious kick in the ass to tighten some of this loose skin, get my heart healthy, build my endurance and all the other crap associated with exercising. LOL!

BOOBS, yes, I will be at BOOBS. Ok, ok.....calm down. I know the excitement of meeting me is overwhelming for most of you but trust me....I am just an ordinary (awesome) person that you all will love! Found out one of our room mates can't make it so that stinks but now I don't have to sleep with Jen....she is very disappointed about not sleeping with me. :) I do have to say that I will NOT be wearing a dress during BOOBS weekend. I am not a dress person so I am hoping that nice jeans, or pants, will be ok for our dinner. Also, does anyone know about the 5k? I want to do it but not sure that I will be able to run the entire thing. How will that work for someone like me?

I received some clothes from Amy C. and will be taking pics this weekend and posting. I cannot believe that I will be wearing Old Navy! I have NEVER worn Old Navy. EVER. The sisterhood is awesome and I hope to someday contribute some of my clothes!!!

I have missed you all and have started catching up on all the blogs that I have missed. Sorry!

Letter to 300lbs

Dear 300lbs,

I want to say goodbye. I wish I could say that I will miss you but I can't. I never liked you. You depressed me and made it difficult to buy clothes, walk up stairs, play with my kids and just live. I hid because of you and now, I don't have to hide. I know, I am only 5 lbs from you but I know I will never let you take hold of my life again. I have control and an awesome tool that is helping me. So, goodbye and good riddance.