Where in the world is AMY W?

Ok, I am going through some serious Amy W. withdrawl. It has been over a week since her last post and I feel like I am going to SCREAM! I look forward to her posts! I know from Facebook that she has been on vacation; skiing, singing karaoke, taking pics, drinking beer but come on....there are people here that are addicted to her blog, ok I may be the only one but I don't want to seem crazy! Anyway...I miss her and she better come back and write a kick ass blog! And if you haven't read her blog....go read it! NOW!

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Pigged Out!!! YUCK!

See the above cute little pink piggy? Yeah, well I have been him for the past 2 days and it is NOT pretty! WTF?!? I do great while I am at work. I stay within my calories, I do not over eat, I only eat when I am hungry, blah, blah, blah...I follow the band rules but when I get home I turn into the not-so-cute little piggy! Today I even went to the store and bought ice cream! What the FUCK! I am going to confess and tell you what I ate so that I can't hide from it anymore. I ate an entire bag of BBQ chips, a single serving size container of B&J Cookie Dough ice cream and 4 (yes, 4) Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches. Skinny Cow or not...eating 4 does not result in a Skinny Bitch! After eating all that crap and sitting on the couch for a bit I started getting pissed off with myself. Going through all the old questions: Why do I do this to myself? What was my trigger? Is this ever going to end? Yadda, Yadda, Yadda..................

Do you wanna know what I did to semi redeem myself from the "little" pigout today? I walked/jogged 2.87 miles in 43 minutes. Now, it is freaking HOT out and I walked FAST and jogged several parts (more than I have ever jogged before) so I got one hell of a workout and sweat my ass off. I had sweat coming from areas that I don't think have ever sweat so it felt damn good. What??!!?? I just said that sweating felt damn good. Someone please slap me because I must be dreaming! Here is a picture of me all sweaty after my walk. I kinda like this picture because I think my face is starting to look a bit thinner..which is nice!!!

My hair is all nasty in this picture because I was sweaty and the humidity really messes with curly hair. Damnit! Now, I want all of you to know that it is NOT easy to jog at 312 pounds! It is hard as hell but I did it. Yes, ma'am I did! Granted some of you can probably walk a hell of a lot faster than I can jog but I don't give a hoot because jogging at my weight is no small feat!

I get my second fill on Monday and I am hoping that it will give me a LOT more restriction. My surgeon is pretty cool about listening to my needs. My first fill was 5 cc's so I am not worried that he won't give me enough! I just cannot wait!

Ok guys and gals...that is my confession of the day! I have now told all my blogging buddies my sin for the day. I will NOT pigout tomorrow. I cannot pigout tomorrow! NO MORE PIGS!!! UGH!

Well....Hello!

Hi everyone!!! I know it has been a week since I last posted..so sorry! Please forgive me. It takes me FOREVER to get through all the blogs so by the time I am finished, I don't have any time left to update my blog. I know...I know...I will try harder or read faster!

Today is my weigh-in day and initially the scale said 311 but I didn't believe it to so I weighed again and it said 312 so then I waited a few minutes and weighed again (yes, I am a little crazy) and it was 313. WTF?!? So, I weighed myself again and it was 312 so that is my official weight for the week. That brings my weight loss total to 25 pounds. YAY! I even ate like CRAP over the weekend but I did walk a shitload to make up for a lot of the crap I ate. Yesterday I stayed WAY under my allotted calories and I walked. I bought an iPod shuffle for my walking and I love it! I am so happy to finally be seeing the scale move and it is REALLY motivating. I am starting to think that I am falling in love with my band! (teeheehee) This coming from the person that was in Bandster Hell and thought that the band was going to be just another failed "diet". I can't wait to reach the 200's! I know...that's crazy because 200's is still FAT but I never want to weigh "3" something EVER again!

I texted my hubby this morning that I have lost a total of 25 pounds and do you wanna know what his response was.....

Wait for it....

He said....

"OK"

Yep, that's it! Just freaking OK! Are you kidding me? So I said, that's all you have to say? What the fuck? He then responded with "that's good love you". Ugh! How freaking frustrating! He is not an overly emotional and supportive person and I get that but come on! Oh well!

Still not sure about BOOBS. I have some potential roommates lined up and they sound super cool but I am still just not sure. I have mentioned to the hubby that I really want to go but he just doesn't seemed too thrilled about it. I know I have to make a decision ASAP so I am working on it! Promise! I really want to meet a lot of you awesome band bloggers.

Well, that is all for now! I will try not to stay away for so long! Have a GREAT Tuesday!!!

21

Quick post just to say that as of today...I have lost 21 freaking pounds!!! Yeah BABY!

I will post more later!!!

Have a great Tuesday!!!

Update.......

Hi Everyone!!! I had my first fill on Monday and that was an experience. HA! When the doc had the big ass needle in my belly then told me to sit up and drink water....I couldn't believe it! Trust me, I work with needles on a daily basis so I am far from fearful but having a needle sticking straight out of my belly is a bit CrAzY! He gave me 5cc's! I told him to fill the dang thing so it is completely closed! He said NO! Darnit! I tried! I met with the nutritionist too. He told me to eat 1,000-1,200 cals per day. Now, here is the crazy thing....how do I get that many calories? Yesterday I was under calories and even had an ice cream cone (I know, spank me). If I am not supposed to eat more than 1 cup of food at a time and only supposed to eat 3 meals a day, then how do I get the extra calories in? Advice please!

I bought a new scale on Monday. Typically I weigh myself at work but decided to buy a scale for home so that I could weigh myself first thing in the morning and NAKED! Monday night I weighed myself to compare the new scale with the weight from the doc's office. The new scale said I weighed 2 pounds less. Ok, fine! Well, the next morning I followed my doc's directions and did my weekly weigh-in! Got out of bed, peed, stripped and stepped on the scale. It now said I was 6 pounds less than the night before! So I weighed myself again...the same reading! I am skeptical but since that will be the scale I use every week then I will keep that number. I did weigh myself this morning to make sure it wasn't a fluke and it was close to what it was yesterday morning, just a few ounces higher. So...it must be right! If it is accurate then I have lost a total of 17 pounds! Not too shabby!

Still looking for a roommate for BOOBS Chicago....anyone interested?

Have a WONDERFUL Hump Day!!!

First 5k and First Fill

I get my very first fill tomorrow and I am so excited! I just wanna dance and sing and shout with excitement. I am hoping this will jump start my weight loss because I am still stuck at 11 stinkin' pounds! I know, I know....the first fill may not make a difference and that I may have to get several fills before I really notice a difference but for now, I am excited that I am getting my first fill. It feels like a huge step in the right direction.


Speaking of excitement.....
 
I finished my first official 5k on Saturday. I walked it in 59 minutes! I finished before 80 other walkers. It was hot and I was sweating my ass off but it felt damn good to finish the race! I got a little sunburned too! My goal is to be able to jog/run it next year. I am going to join the local fitness center tomorrow so that I have somewhere to workout if the weather is crappy or if I just need a change in the exercise routine. They have childcare available (for a fee) so I can take Macy with me and still get a good workout! Here are some pictures from the 5k! Enjoy!!!
 

Excited for our first 5k!

Matt is ready to RUN!

Macy eating an orange after the race!

Blogger Stuck In Hell and My Zumba Experience

I would like to start tonight by introducing a band buddy that is going through a tough time. She and I were banded the same time and since then we both have not seen the scale move. We have talked about how we sometimes feel that this too will fail just like every other diet or program that we have tried. We have really been going through bandster hell. Here's the difference......I have been blogging and getting AMAZING feedback from my followers. I get encouragement and the occasional "SNAP OUT OF IT" from all of you! I appreciate EVERYTHING that is said because I do want this tool to help me and I want to follow your advice since you all are "experts" in my opinion. The other day we were texting and she was telling me that she is still having a rough time so I asked if she has been blogging these thoughts and emotions and she said NO because when she does she doesn't get any comments. So, I am reaching out to all my followers asking you to help this blogger because she needs it. We all need one another's support and encouragement! Her name is Melissa. Please visit her blog and send her a LOT of warm fuzzies! Thank you!

Ok, so I went to Zumba tonight and it kicked my ASS! Now, I would like to share that I didn't know any of the moves and was extremely grateful that there were NO MIRRORS in the room because if I would have seen my big butt shaking and gyrating...I may have vomited a little in my mouth! There were 5 other women and they clearly did not know all the moves either but were more experienced than me. The woman next to me was probably in her 70's and she shook that money maker better than a 22 year old pole dancer! It was awesome yet a little irritating that she was shaking her groove thang better than me! Overall the class was ok. I am going to go again next week and try it again. I am also going to look into some other classes that the fitness center has. We live in a very small town so classes are limited but I am planning on joining the fitness center and using the equipment like the dreaded elliptical.

Goodnight all....please go see Melissa! Thank you!!! ((Hugs))