Pretty Blue Eyes...not so pretty!

Please forgive me! I have been under the weather. Thursday morning I woke with my right eye swollen red and watering. I knew it was an eye infection. Afterall, Macy had a fever and an eye infection just a few days prior. I had NO idea how bad that eye infection would get. It is now Sunday and now both my eyes are swollen, tearing constantly and red. It is difficult to see and they are painful. I went to the doctor on Saturday and she says that I have viral conjunctivitis! Oh yay...that means I have to let it run it's course. I look like hell!

Yep, that is what I look like but in BOTH freaking eyes!

I have not been able to workout since Wednesday and for some odd reason I want to eat the paint off the damn walls. I don't know why. I am calling my surgeon's office in the morning and asking to go in for a small fill tomorrow. I still have some restriction but I am a little loose and that is just not a good thing for me. I really want to get BELOW 300. I wanted to get there BEFORE August 1st but with this stupid eye crap, I haven't done anything...other than eat. I haven't even read any blogs since Wednesday. That is VERY unlike me since I try to read daily otherwise it seems overwhelming!

In my absence from the blog world, I won 2 awards and PROMISE to officially and properly accept those awards tomorrow night. I am soooo sorry that it has taken me so long. I won't be nominated for anymore awards if I keep this up!

Talk to you all tomorrow! Take care!

Going CrAzY!!!

The kids are sick. My hubby has been working a buttload of hours. I spent the day stuck in the house with a whining 8 year old and crabby 7 month old. I finally got a shower at 9:30 p.m. I am so stressed that I ate ice cream tonight! I know...terrible! Please spank me. I haven't been able to workout since Thursday and STUPID Aunt Flo decided to come stay for a few days today! Bitch! I have cramps and want to eat the paint off the walls! I am going back to work tomorrow and WILL workout tomorrow after work. I am 4 freaking pounds from the 200's and I want to get there ASAP!!!!

Ok. I feel a little better now that I vented! Tuesday, please bring healthy kids and a husband that comes home before bedtime.

Uh-huh....I am a all signed up!

I signed up at the local fitness center tonight! Yippee!!! Monthly membership fee is not too bad, at all! $14 something a month...not too shabby! I do have to pay $3 every time I use the sitter there but that's ok...money well spent! After I signed up I was able to get a workout in. I started with 20 minutes on the treadmill. I walked 3.5 mph and jogged 4.5 mph a total of 3 minutes. I could have done more but I was too concerned with what everyone else was thinking. "Holy crap...look at the fat girl trying to run on the treadmill!" Yep....that's the shit that the little guy in my head says all the freaking time. I ignored that little bastard and jogged anyway....I have to get ready for BOOBS...duh!

After the treadmill, I moved on to this lovely contraption called THE DEVIL or aka an elliptical. That little bugger kicked my ass for 10 minutes but it felt damn good to put that butt-wad back in his place when I finished that 10 minutes without falling to the ground! After I kicked the devil's ass, I moved onto the circuit and did a couple arm related exercises. Macy was getting tired and was ready to go home so I wasn't able to stay longer. I felt like I did a pretty good job my first night!

I stayed within my 1200 cals today and I definitely thought I would go over since the head hunger was enough to make me go CrAzY! But I stayed strong and made it through the night without binging! YAY me!

This past weekend we went to WI for 3 days camping, swimming, boating and more. We had a great time!!

Here are some highlights from the weekend! Enjoy!

Michael showing off while tubing!

Pretty in pink!

Miss Macy sitting on the pier!

Matt tubing....they were showing off too!

Long day!

Good big brother! Macy loves the water!

I hope you all enjoy the pictures! We had a great time and plan on going back in August for an "adults only" weekend! Hopefully it will be a little cooler or at least less humid and I will be thinner!!!

Goodnight All!

I want to EAT, EAT, EAT......

Ok, for the past couple of days all I have wanted to do is EAT! I am not physically hungry and I have awesome restriction. I think Aunt Flo may be coming to visit soon...stupid bitch! Any who....I am struggling! My stupid head told me to go rent some movies and buy ice cream. WTF?!? Ice cream is my crack! I have to stay away from it! So, wanna know what I did instead?!? Hmmm?!?

I scheduled an appt at 6:30 at the local gym to get signed up. I talked to someone there last night and they can offer childcare if I tell them exactly what days/time I need it. So, I am going to have set days/times to go to the gym and Macy can stay with the sitter there. I can't count on my husband (mentioned in previous post) to be home at a certain time to be certain that I can go for a walk in the evenings. It has been too stinking hot and humid for Macy to go with me in the stroller. Remember the last time I took her...I wanted to jump off a bridge because she cried the entire time...an hour!

So, instead of sitting at home...stuffing my face....I will go to the gym! The head hunger is really freaking strong! Ugh!!! Some days I wish I could turn that part of my brain off!

Take care!!!

Houston......We Have RESTRICTION!

I had my second fill on Monday (the pic is posted) and since then, I have great restriction! OMG! I never thought I would get here. I am only able to HALF the amount of food that I was eating prior to said second fill. I am getting "stuck" feelings but have NOT been stuck yet. I have to eat my food incredibly slowly and over an extended period of time. I am consuming a LOT less calories too! YAY. So, right now I can honestly say that I LOVE my band!!! I am happy that the scale continues to move downward and that makes so stinking happy!!

See this cute picture? Well, it is not so cute when you are trying to walk/run while pushing a stroller with a 7 month old that is screaming because she is hot, tired, hungry and just plain not happy! I try to exercise when my husband is home and he can keep Macy but he has been working a LOT lately and therefore I am left with 2 options: Take her with me OR Not exercise. I WANT to exercise because I want to lose weight. My hubby is not very supportive about me doing things to "better" myself...this could very well not be true....but he isn't exactly rushing home to let me go for a walk. During this "lovely" walk last night I actually stopped for a second and called my husband and told him to listen to what I was listening to......and I held the phone by Macy, screaming. I then read him the riot act! I was PISSED! My entire freaking life revolves around my kids and therefore I always put myself on the back burner! I know, I know....this is what we do when we are mothers but can't I get some "ME TIME"?!? I am only asking for a few hours a week! Now, before you contact the local child welfare department....I DID NOT just ignore her cries! I gave her a bottle, a toy, talked to her but NOTHING helped until she finally fell asleep! Ugh....eating a bowl of ice cream, sitting on the couch, watching TV would have been a LOT less stressful!

So, I am 10.6 pounds from reaching my first MAJOR weight goal. Once I lose that pesky 10.6 pounds, I will no longer weigh 300 pounds! That is a HUGE accomplishment, after all I have not been under 300 in almost 4 years, at our wedding. Granted I was about 298 but I wasn't 300 and that was AWESOME. So...since I am soooo stinking close to my goal what should my "reward" be? I am not into designer bags and am not a "girly girl". I get pedicures when I need them and get my hair cut at a reasonably priced chain salon. I thought about buying a pair of Keen shoes but not sure that is what I really want! So...to all my AWESOME followers...what would you suggest? Do you think Amy W. would come celebrate with me? That would be the BESTEST reward EVER! Yes, I am her BIGGEST (no pun intended) fan! No, seriously......give me some ideas! Thanks!!!

**Smooches**

Bat (Wing) Woman!!!

I have some serious arm fat and need your advice. Is there anything that I can do to help tighten up all the loose skin? I went shopping yesterday and when I was trying on t-shirts my arms looked terrible! UGH!

Help Me!

2nd Fill Pics

Helloooooo to all my loyal followers!!! Today I had my 2nd fill and am hoping for a bit more restriction. I just had to take a picture of the fill so I snapped a picture while the needle was in my port and I was sitting up. I actually held the needle for a moment while the doc handed my camera to me. The doc was very hesitant on giving me a fill because I have been losing weight but I told him that although I am losing weight, I feel that I am restricting my food intake instead of the band working! I want to lose weight utilizing the band AND me learning good eating habits. Anyway...he gave me another 1.5 cc (I think) so that means I now have 6.5 cc in a 14 cc band. Today I stayed ON TRACK with my calorie intake and hope to get to the point where I will be able to continue to lose without having to write down everything I eat. I have been burping quite a bit since my fill and even had some shoulder/gas pains, but I will live!!! Ok, so here is the moment you all have been waiting for...the pic of me getting my fill!