Spank me, I have been NAUGHTY!

I am sorry that I have been away from my wonderful blog for a week. I say sorry every time and I really mean it every time. I log onto my Blogger account everyday but then I start reading all the blogs and then I just run out of time to update my blog. If only I could pause time everyday so that I could read and comment on all the blogs AND post on mine. HA, if only!!!

The last 2 weeks have been HORRIBLE. I have struggled with head hunger and over eating. I went in for fill # 3 yesterday and am hoping that helps me! So far today it has. Thank goodness. I haven't been able to exercise on a regular basis and the scale is not happy about it. I am still just over 300 and feel like I will never weigh less than 300. I know, that is negative self talk, slap me!

I do have to tell you of some pretty AWESOME NSV's. For years, I have only been able to buy pants at Lane Bryant because the shirts were too snug and I like my shirts loose. I would order my shirts online. It sucked but I was fat. Once in awhile I would lose a little weight and be able to fit into the Avenue's largest shirts but not Lane Bryant. 2 weeks ago I needed a shirt for a birthday party we were going to so I went to LB to try on some shirts. Well, guess what.....the shirts fit me. Not snug, not tight, just freaking right! Yep...I was able to buy 2 shirts from LB. That felt FUCKING AWESOME!!! This weekend I was at Target and went into the women's section and grabbed a t-shirt. I bought it without trying it on. I figured if it were too small, then I would just hold onto it since I am losing weight. I got home and tried it on and guess what...IT FIT! Yep...do the happy dance....shake that bootay! I was soooo damn excited. Last night I went back and bought 3 more! I can also wear my hot push up bras again. Haven't been able to wear them since shortly before my wedding nearly 4 years ago. Nothing feels better than wearing a bra that pushes those bad girls up into your chin and gives your fun bags some cleavage!! Yes ma'am, I said it! I did it too! And it felt AWESOME!

My hubby are going away for a romantic getaway this weekend. We are leaving Friday night and returning Sunday sometime. The kids are staying at my mom's house. I am so damn excited...I just can't hide it! I may come home walking like I had just rode a horse! LOL!!! Too funny, I crack myself up! Anyway, I am hoping to lose 2 more pounds and be less than 300 for our special weekend. Keeping my fingers crossed which makes it somewhat difficult to shove food in my mouth.

Love you all......so dang happy to have you all!!! Hugs!

That's me wearing my new shirt and feeling HOT!

Happy Tuesday!

Hi everyone! I don't have anything to say other than "HAPPY TUESDAY". I am feeling blah about my weight loss because it feels like I will NEVER get below 300. The fucking scale showed a gain yesterday so I am avoiding her for a few days. I can understand the gain, I haven't worked out in a few weeks because of my stupid eye infection. Today I will do exercise. I promise myself! And I won't give in to the HEAD HUNGER!

I hope everyone is doing well! Take care!

xoxo

I am BACK!

Hello to all my WONDERFUL followers! I apologize for slacking in my blogging lately but having conjunctivitis in BOTH freaking eyes is no fun and I am finally able to sit in front of the computer without feeling like my eyeballs are balls of fire.

Since I have been gone, I have been nominated for The Versatile Blogger Award by 3 LOVELY ladies! Thank you, Thank you to Amey, Maria and Kagead!

Here are the rules for this award:

1.Thank the person giving the award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.

3. Nominate 15 newly discovered blogs.

4. Let your nominees know about the award.

Ask and ye shall receive:

1. I am a CRADLE ROBBER!  My husband and I have been been married for nearly 4 years. I was 25 when Matt was born and my hubster was a day shy of 19. Yep, I am a cradle robber and damn proud of it. We are very happily married! I mean, come on, we all have our UPs and DOWNs in our relationships and sometimes we can't stand one another but we love one another very much and plan on growing old together. I truly believe the my hubby is an "old soul" because you would never guess he is younger than me!

2. I have 3 kids (as you all have seen from my pics). Michael is 14, Matthew is 8 and Macy is 7 months. Yep, all M names! I was a single mother of 1 for nearly 5 years.

3. My son Michael has some several severe mental illnesses. He is currently stable but used to be physical and verbally abusive. He was hospitalized 7 times between the age of 4 and 10. He lived in a residential treatment center 3 times.

4. I like to read but have had a hard time finding books that capture me after reading the Twilight series. Oh, and the books are 100x's better than the movies.

5. I love photography and wish I would have gone to college for photography and was able to be a photographer for a living. Nothing greater than getting paid for something you love doing!

6. I have never cheated on my husband and never would but I have a girl crush on Amy W. She is sooooo dang cute! I know, I am a little stalker-ish but it's all good!

7. I fear that I will be the fattest person at BOOBS Chicago! I know I blogged about this before but it still bothers me. I will get over it.....on Sunday at BOOBS when I am on my way home! LOL!

So, there you have it. A fer tasty morsels into the life of ME!!!

 
I nominate the following BEAUTIFUL bloggers:
 
Liss - My band buddy! Poor Liss was banded the same time as me but just finally got a fill and some restriction!
Sparkler - She got kicked out of Care Bear Land for bad language....had to laugh!
Sugar Snap and Me - She's in "bandster hell" and could use all of our support because that is HELL!
Sarah - She just reached her first 25 lbs lost and has 25 followers. YAY!
Lily's Mommy - She needs our support because her stupid scale is stuck!
Katherine - She is a fellow bandster but she also recently assisted with a HOME BIRTH...how cool is that?
CeeJay - She has lost 71 lbs and is such an inspiration!
Seeing in Colour - Her "wishes" are great and she is so beautiful!
Nikki - She is so beautiful and started her band journey a few months before me. Check out the Homecoming video on her Blog!
Shrinking Mommy - Ok, she is totally rocking this band! She has lost 100 lbs in 8 months (and 3 weeks)..that is awesome!
MLM - She and I were banded within weeks of one another and so that makes MLM awesome! Cuz I say so!
Amanda M. - She wants to become a Social Worker and I always wanted to become a social worker but never finished my education so I have to give recognition to a woman who is following her dreams and getting healthy along the way!
Jenny - She is seriously rocking this band too! She just got her band at the end of June and is doing a GREAT job! You go girl!
McKayla - She is another band buddy from LBT.
Jen - She is my BOOBS roomie so I have to be kind otherwise she may write on my face with permanent marker while I sleep! LOL!
Janice - She is also my BOOBS roomie so I have to stay on her "good side"! LOL!

Pretty Blue Eyes...not so pretty!

Please forgive me! I have been under the weather. Thursday morning I woke with my right eye swollen red and watering. I knew it was an eye infection. Afterall, Macy had a fever and an eye infection just a few days prior. I had NO idea how bad that eye infection would get. It is now Sunday and now both my eyes are swollen, tearing constantly and red. It is difficult to see and they are painful. I went to the doctor on Saturday and she says that I have viral conjunctivitis! Oh yay...that means I have to let it run it's course. I look like hell!

Yep, that is what I look like but in BOTH freaking eyes!

I have not been able to workout since Wednesday and for some odd reason I want to eat the paint off the damn walls. I don't know why. I am calling my surgeon's office in the morning and asking to go in for a small fill tomorrow. I still have some restriction but I am a little loose and that is just not a good thing for me. I really want to get BELOW 300. I wanted to get there BEFORE August 1st but with this stupid eye crap, I haven't done anything...other than eat. I haven't even read any blogs since Wednesday. That is VERY unlike me since I try to read daily otherwise it seems overwhelming!

In my absence from the blog world, I won 2 awards and PROMISE to officially and properly accept those awards tomorrow night. I am soooo sorry that it has taken me so long. I won't be nominated for anymore awards if I keep this up!

Talk to you all tomorrow! Take care!