Monday, April 25, 2011

I'm a Runner?!?!?

It's been a full 24 hours (and some change) since I have had a bite of ice cream, aka my heroin! I need to add a little ticker thingy to the top of my blog that shows when the last time I ate ice cream so I can hold myself accountable and you all can spy on me. HA! I will have a hard time NOT avoiding then but damnit, I can't touch that stuff otherwise I get sucked back into the tailspin of ice cream addiction. It's bad. People say, oh have skinny cow or half the fat, but the problem is....I will sit and eat it all. Not just the "suggested serving", no I will eat the entire freaking carton because it is in my freezer, no other reason than that. Damn you ice cream, damn you!!!!

I started a "Couch to 5k" program with a local running group. Yep, gonna feel some pain tomorrow but what a sweet pain it will be! I had been doing a C25K program that was on my phone on the treadmill at the gym but doing it with a group of people and knowing that people are watching, my competitive nature comes out and I refuse to give up. It's a helluva lot harder running outside than on the treadmill. Damnit. I really think if I stay away from the ice cream the scale will move since my band is super tight and can't over indulge on anything other than ice cream. While I was out "running", I kept thinking how badly I want to be able to say that I am a runner. I have never said that. I mean, gosh, how cool would it be to be able to find "enjoyment" from going for a run with a local running group? Weird concept right now but I hope to someday think that way.

Is it possible that my band may be too tight? I really can't eat much without getting stuck and/or throwing it up. Do you think that maybe I want to eat the ice cream because I can't get satisfaction from food? So, I try to get the food satisfaction from ice cream since it is the only thing that goes down with absolutely no problem? Or is my addiction to food so damn overwhelming that I am gonna have to fight like hell to get through this? If only they fixed my brain when they put the band in. HA! What do you think?



  1. I am the same way with Chocolate... Unfortunately, I gave it up for over a month but decided to have a candy bar last week and now I am back to binging on it, again. I love it so much, I wish I could eat it in moderation. It is likely that I will give it up again. Also, I can't have it in the house. With Ice cream... I love it, but I won't buy it for home. I let it be a treat once in a while but never at home, and always the smallest size available. Maybe, that will work with chocolate too. Damn Easter candy got me! *Maria*

  2. welcome back!! That is so awesome you found a c25k program to do with others! I started it also and was supposed to do a run this weekend but never disappointed and would like to actually finish it and one day call myself a "runner"..I have a very similar addiction to ice cream and now chocolate chip cookies...I never had a huge sweet tooth until now! argh! I try moderation but over indulge!

  3. I so feel your pain. My name is Dawnya...and I'm addicted to ice cream too. OMG...I love the stuff. I can eat it all day. I think it should come out of the faucet. I tried to give it up. I didn't even last 48 hours. I was in the DQ drive-thru getting my fix. LOL

  4. Stick with it Kerri...this is why we are al hre for you. You have done very well and I am so proud of you. Hang in there and things will get better! :)

  5. Oh goodness yes, ice cream is my crack these days. I had to quit eating it altogether for the same reason. Good for you for running!

  6. I'm so far behind, so you have probably worked all this out by now... :) But I was that way when I was too tight. I ate nothing but sliders and it really showed up on the scale. I do much better when I'm on the looser side.

    Also, you rock! I would love to join a running group, but I would have to quit Jazzercise to make and it work and I don't want to do that. I think it takes a TON of committment and I'm so impressed with you. AWESOME!!