Sunday, September 19, 2010

Okay, Okay!!!

Let me start by saying that I LOVE this picture! Macy learned to do "So Big". She turned 9 months old on Friday and she weighed in at 20.12 lbs. Do you realize that I have lost 2 Macy's in fat!?! When I put it that way...that is pretty cool! I hate the scale and just wanna beat the crap out of it. I know that I am losing weight because clothes that I wore are too big and new clothes in smaller sizes now fit but the refuses to budge! I hate it! (for now) BOOBS!

I talked to my hubby one more time and I decided to go to BOOBS (again)! No I am not bipolar, crazy or have split personalities! Well, I am a little crazy! I HATE spending money on myself. I don't know why. I should rephrase that....I have a hard time spending money on myself. I am so used to buying everything for everyone else so the idea of spending money on a hotel room, new clothes, food, shopping and fun stuff...scares the crap out of me. Michael needs new shoes, Matthew needs new jeans, Macy needs more fall/winter clothes. There is ALWAYS a kid that has a need for my money. My hubby hates the idea of me staying a couple nights away from him and my 8 year old...HATES it too. He keeps saying that he understands why I need to go but doesn't want me to go because he will miss me. Ugh! But, like I said, I talked it over with my husband again and have decided to just go. I mean for goodness sakes, if it is terrible, I can just drive home. I probably won't be doing the boat tour since it is a bit pricey. I have this Debbie Downer inside of me that tells me I am too fat to do this. That even though I have lost 40lbs, that is still not good enough for all you ladies! Debbie makes me doubt myself, feel uncomfortable in my skin and holds me back from enjoying life. I hate her. I hope she dies when this weight eventually comes off!

Sorry for being a bit CrAzY! Try living with me! Teeheehee!

See you lovely ladys in a few short days!!!


  1. YAY!!!
    40 pounds is terrific! Don't compare yourself to others, it's bad for the ego. This group has 2 things in common: 1. very supportive personalities. 2. We are/were overweight. So no matter where you are in your journey, you are very excepted! So glad you can make it!

  2. I would have died of a broken heart if my roomie didn't show up! Can't wait for our pillow fight!

  3. I am so glad you are coming. We all need time away and know that out of 50 something women, there will be people you will click with and wind up having a good time. Husband will survive, thie kids will manage and life will go on, but you'll have some great memories, hopefully!