I know, I know...all the bloggers that are not going to be in Chicago this weekend are getting so sick of hearing "BOOBs" and "Chicago" but i have to talk about it just for a moent so hang in there.
I would like to share that THIS is totally out of my comfort zone. I am or was a self-proclaimed hermit. Yes ma'am......this awesome chick is a hermit....well....was! Since losing 42 lbs and no longer weighing in the 3's, I feel so much better about myself. I was ahermit bc I hated the way I looked. I felt that everyone saw the fat...not the person. Now I know I am still quite overwieght but my confidence is so much better. Prior to the band and losing 43lbs, there would have been no way in hell I would have gone to Chicago. I never did anything. I was uncomfortable in public and in my own skin so I went to work and home. I avoided social situationsto the best of my ability. Occasionally my hubby would drag me to social events and I was miserable....but not anymore. I still have some insecurities but each day and each lb lost boosts that confidence. Being able to go into Lane Bryant and buy smaller jeans and cute tops and sexy bras....that isan amazing feeling. For years I bout all my shirts online bc that is the only place I could find a large enough size. It sucked. So, for all of you not going to Chicago...I want you to know that this is exciting to me because I have hidden for so long and finally feel comfortable getting out and being myself. Thanks for everyone's support.
Chapter 38: This one is for me
2 weeks ago