Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Bye 42 and Bye 300


Yep, you have read that right....42 freaking lbs gone!!!

I have been MIA for awhile and I am sorry for that! August sucked some serious balls! I didn't lose a freaking pound and I felt like a failure! I figured that once again, I was going to fail at this "diet" too. That I was destined to be fat forever! That I was destined to be buried in the extra large coffin. It sucked. I told myself I was not gonna go to BOOBS because I didn't want to be the fattest person there. I did not want to meet everyone at 300+ lbs. I know, it is irrational thinking but they are my crazy ass thoughts! Sorry! So, last week I weighed myself and it said that I was under 300, WTF?!? That can't be right. I had been eating like crazy. So, I stepped off and stepped back on the scale and sure as shit....299. Let me share a tidbit of history. I have not weighed less than 300 since the day of my wedding nearly 4 years ago. At that time I lost 62lbs with WW. I was so excited to say that I did not weigh 300 when I walked down the aisle but soon after the wedding, I slowly started regaining. It happens. We all know that. This morning the scale fairy blessed me with 295 which brings me to a loss of 42lbs since 5/10/10. Not too shabby considering the stupid scale didn't move at all in August and I have not been working out.

Speaking of working out....! Friday I am starting with a personal trainer and am soooo excited! I need a serious kick in the ass to tighten some of this loose skin, get my heart healthy, build my endurance and all the other crap associated with exercising. LOL!

BOOBS, yes, I will be at BOOBS. Ok, ok.....calm down. I know the excitement of meeting me is overwhelming for most of you but trust me....I am just an ordinary (awesome) person that you all will love! Found out one of our room mates can't make it so that stinks but now I don't have to sleep with Jen....she is very disappointed about not sleeping with me. :) I do have to say that I will NOT be wearing a dress during BOOBS weekend. I am not a dress person so I am hoping that nice jeans, or pants, will be ok for our dinner. Also, does anyone know about the 5k? I want to do it but not sure that I will be able to run the entire thing. How will that work for someone like me?

I received some clothes from Amy C. and will be taking pics this weekend and posting. I cannot believe that I will be wearing Old Navy! I have NEVER worn Old Navy. EVER. The sisterhood is awesome and I hope to someday contribute some of my clothes!!!

I have missed you all and have started catching up on all the blogs that I have missed. Sorry!

Letter to 300lbs

Dear 300lbs,

I want to say goodbye. I wish I could say that I will miss you but I can't. I never liked you. You depressed me and made it difficult to buy clothes, walk up stairs, play with my kids and just live. I hid because of you and now, I don't have to hide. I know, I am only 5 lbs from you but I know I will never let you take hold of my life again. I have control and an awesome tool that is helping me. So, goodbye and good riddance.

Sincerely,
Kerri

19 comments:

  1. Congratulations Kerri!!!!

    Don't worry about a dress...pants are fine! I swore I'd never wear a dress again either - they had to strap one on me for my wedding - I hated it. But now, I wear one all the time - maybe one day you'll change your mind. You never know!

    So glad you are coming - I can't wait to see you there!

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  2. Yeah for getting to 295. I'm walking the 5k (signed up already). I don't run-never-ever. And I'm panting it for the Chicago weekend. Not much of a dress person. Although my daughter and I are going shopping next weekend. Still-pants are my fav. Can't wait to meet you.

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  3. Way to go Kerri! SO happy for you.

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  4. Another non-dress person here. Black slacks and a pretty top for me. I had made this crazy weight loss goal of losing 15 lbs before Chicago and I've lost 1.4. Wow. How unimpressive. I'm struggling to get restriction, like I know so many people do up front, so I'm really trying not to be a big baby about it. Can't wait to meet you in Chicago.

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  5. Kerri - please join us on the 5K! I have already said that I will walk with whomever wants/needs to do that, and there are a few of us who are definite walkers... join in if you feel up to it!!! Congrats on the loss - that is amazing! Keep up the amazing work... hope you can join our Komen team - see you in 3 weeks! (And my verification word was "gonse"... 42 lbs gonse!)

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  6. CONGRATS KERRI!!! Isn't that the weirdest thing - some of my best losses happen when I'm NOT trying very hard, when I'm eating poorly and not working out. I think it's our body playing catch up and rewarding us for being so good for so long. It's nice to have the breaks, and its so motivating to get back up again when break time is over!!

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  7. That is awesome! It's amazing how weight loss can sneak up an surprise us. It's almost like once we stop obsessing over the scale, it decides to reward us.

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  8. 42 pounds!! Good job, that is amazing!

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  9. Woo Hoo!!!! How exciting. Congrats!

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  10. 42 lbs is awesome...can't wait until Chicago.

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  11. WHOO HOO!!

    I was about to scold you for even thinking of canceling BOOBs plans. We don't care how much you weigh. We love you regardless! :) That includes whether or not you wear a dress. You won't be alone. There are others who are wearing dressy pants.

    I'm doing the 5k, but I am strictly walking it. I'd love to have a walking buddy! Sign up!

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  12. Yay! Kerri... Good for you! Leaving sweet THREEDOM behind you, I am thrilled just to be in the 300's and look forward to being where you are... I am so excited and thrilled about coming to BOOBS. Can't wait to meet you, *Maria*

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  13. Hey woman! I didn't realize we had surgery 5 days apart....mine was May 5th...and I hit 42 pounds down this week too. Pretty cool huh??

    Can't wait to meet you in Chicago!!

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  14. Yayyayayayayayay!!! Congrats Kerri!! so happy for you!! that is really awesome and I can feel your excitement!! I am really bummed that I won't be at BOOBs and I so wish I could meet everyone :(. Glad that you are back on the blogs and congrats again!

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  15. Congrats on dumping the 300. Love the letter.

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  16. This is so awesome!!! Isn't it nice to see a "2"? I think we started about the same weight (well, I was more actually).
    Congrats!!

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  17. Woohoo!!!!! Glad to see you back!!

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  18. I recently shed the 300lb mark myself and WOW, did that feel great! I can barely believe it! Congrats to you! :)

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